More Writings

hmm, still around, still hurting. Sometimes I actually feel ok, strange really, but most of the time I feel so sad and unhappy. I thought it would be at least a little easier by now, but it isn't really and even I start to think I'm dragging it out too much. But I can't force myself to feel another way, I wish I could :(

I would like to note, that today marks the fifth anniversary of when we first met. I love the story of our meeting, it is special. I think I will write it here in another blog post soon to share such a chance meeting. But not today.

Anyway, sharing more poems. I never wrote so many before, so I guess I am hurting a lot :( These are pretty rough, I literally wrote them out into notepad a few minutes ago! They don't even have names yet. As I said, very rough around the edges, they certainly demonstrate that I'm no real poet :)

Poem 1, For this poem I was actually trying to write a happy poem about love. Most of mine seem bitter-sweet, so I wanted a nice happy one to cheer me up. I think it still ended up bitter-sweet though :( Pretty short however, maybe needs another verse or two.

I still see your smile.
Each night in my dreams.
I hear your voice in whispers,
Calling out to me.
You speak of love unbounded,
That covers all land and sea,
No matter where I am, at any moment,
You speak of love that reaches me.

Poem 2, ok. This one's sad and a bit rough around the edges. But I think gets across how I face each day at the moment.

I woke without you this morning,
Though outside there were blue skies.
I rose and dressed so slowly,
And fought the tears in my eyes.

I did not want the day coming,
I could not face what came my way.
Because I would not see you,
Even if I called your name.

The day dragged on forever,
As though it would not end.
But my mind was always upon you,
Though no longer, were you my friend.

I have lost so much without you,
I cannot bear this pain inside.
And I want to run without ending,
Or find some secret place to hide.

I woke without you this morning,
Though outside there were blue skies.
And though I try to face the daybreak,
I feel nothing but sadness inside.

Both are for Nicola. I will always love you.