Gone

Mmmm, I dont think the Nicky I was in love with exists anymore. The girl I see these days is actually cruel, unkind and uncaring to a lot of people that have treated her well (not just me, I feel I must add). And I'm pretty close to just asking her to not see me anymore I think. I dont understand how she can be so different, and it's tearing me up to think she is so bad I might not even be able to see her anymore. But I'm begining to see this will probably be the best thing for both of us. But I can't do it yet, even though I know it will come pretty soon (sooner than I wish too I think). But she is not the Nicky I fell in love with anymore, I think she is still in there somewhere but she been buried by this new Nicky who is not so nice. I miss my Nicky but I think she is gone... :(